I haven't been sleeping well.
I blame this college crap.
If I had the money, I could've gone to Hawaii Tokai, but we don't, so I didn't go. In the end, I made my decision with School of Visual Arts. However, it's hard work even trying to pay the ENROLLMENT fee.
My cousin Fernando tried to contact my brother saying that I'm going to fail. That I don't know my stepping stones.
Well you know what? NO ONE in my household has been to college! So I don't know what to do! They're aren't worried if I go or not, so they aren't telling me what to do, or care where I go! The thing is, paying for it is a bitch. They don't know what a loan is and just, a part of me doubts I'll EVER go to college. I need to talk to my mom about helping pay the enrollment fee, because my dad can't do it alone. He's bankrupted.
I still want to go to Kogakuin, but I have to learn to be realistic: dreams only come true for those who have the money. I don't.
However, I'll admit that School of Visual Arts is worth more than my mom's annual salary, I would still rather go there than a CSU.
Well, if I end up failing at life, I'll just kill myself.
Problem solved.
Fuck this shit.
-Kunoichi
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"I used to go to sleep. Now I go to college."
@Coffee_Kaioken - Haa. That's true. Too bad I don't have a Facebook anymore, otherwise I'd hella join that.
Everytime I go back to college for another semester I get insomnia...especially around finals time. I read a recent study done by someone I can't remember and they were studying this "phenomena" of college kids not sleeping well. It really is a pain.
I live in Japan and went to Iga not too long ago, it was pretty cool. Keep training, don't give up.
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congrats! that's a pretty big step going to college first in your family. you should be proud of yourself, if you aren't :] haha. college isn't easy if you dont have fun yknow. if you dont have fun with what you're doing, then you're just prolly going to loose intrest in it and that is going to suck big time. why not work towards a scholarship? it's not impossible! "I still want to go to Kogakuin, but I have to learn to be realistic: dreams only come true for those who have the money. I don't." see? you DO want it! so work towards it! :D
wow, that's pretty cool. maybe when you graduate from Kogakuin, you and I can work together! LMAO. (yeah, i googled it) what do you want to major in?
RYC: haha, i know, right? oh yes, the turtle is freaking cute.
That is pretty awesome though that you are the first in your family to go to college. No one in mine has gone to college yet so I am hoping I will get to college before my older sister lol.
Don't give up! Keep trying, do whatever it takes to live up to the dream!
Nothing works better than a warm hug so *hugs tightly*. Hang on there. Just hang on. Suicide may be an option but it is not a rewarding one.
Trials are there for us to find our inner strength and awaken it. If things gets harder, you know where to find me. You know my email add even that of my mobile phone.
One step at a time. =)